tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34548193511677604.post7915574551973229674..comments2023-10-14T07:36:07.965-07:00Comments on what's up your butt?: Everybody gets a hugMeganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08683171804744875993noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34548193511677604.post-31606105258944038462007-05-04T07:28:00.000-07:002007-05-04T07:28:00.000-07:00AAGHGSGHSKSKSHHHHFHH!!! hehehehehe, I have felt th...AAGHGSGHSKSKSHHHHFHH!!! <BR/>hehehehehe, I have felt this way SOOOO many times. (if i wasn't so damn lazy, i probably would have already blogged about it) <BR/><BR/>My mom told me about an old guy that she knows who was diagnosed with prostate cancer awhile back. I hadn't really asked about him lately b/c well....i've been a bit preoccupied with my own cancer. So the other day my mom tells me that he was apparently waiting to get radiation treatment b/c he was waiting to be a candidate for some version of radiation or some diff. form of treatment. and 12 months had gone by and he hears from his doctor that he never was a candidate. and now it's just spread too much to do anything about. spread to liver (or some other organ) and now he's pretty much screwed. <BR/>i was just floored. and i see him still volunteering at the horse therapy program where i met him, and i'm just in awe that he can still even function in life! <BR/>and yet, others look at me as this sort of inspirational person too. <BR/>i've had so many people tell me how much hope i give them, or how amazing they think i am. <BR/>and i just smile and sorta nod and say thank you, but inside i'm laughing...<BR/>"you think I'M brave? I don't really have a choice, and you'd do the same things if you were faced with what i face. what else ya gonna do? just give up and die? who does that?!?"<BR/><BR/>i agree, i'm just doing what my doctors say i have to do. granted, maybe i tend to have a better than average sense of humor about it...but still. i'm not any more brave than the next person. we all got it in us. just depends on what it is that brings it outBeccahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00068323045390841989noreply@blogger.com